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everything keeps flying over my head

Last night we had to say goodbye to Miso aka Mr. Man aka Meese aka Meesey. He was tough as nails and could be a huge asshole, but under that was the sweetest creampuff of a cat, and Stace and … Continue reading

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are you old enough now to know what you need?

Things feel especially dire right now. I’m a really anxious person, so things feel scary all the time – but this feels different. People I trust – the adults in the room – are also freaking out. I have no … Continue reading

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dormant

Sometimes I feel like I lose the ability to be an active participant in my own life. When depression starts to creep up again, I want to want to do things – write or record music, knit, paint – any … Continue reading

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the shadow is chasing me, i’m running away… retracing a part of me, to leave it behind

When did I become so complacent, so accommodating, such a helpless thing? Have I always been like this? Was I always so terrified of conflict that I was willing to do anything to keep the peace, even if it meant … Continue reading

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i choke out the words i’ve been meaning to say

I originally started writing this in an Instagram story but it got way too long, and also maybe too personal. It was in response to a post from mattxiv about a firefighter that came out as gay in his obituary. … Continue reading

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climbing up for air

Once again, up at 4:35 in the morning. At least this time it’s a Saturday. I signed up to do Record Production Month again this year, wherein you pick a quantity of music you want to record (a single, EP, … Continue reading

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i dare you to move, dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

Yesterday, at like 10pm, I got an urge to take out my very old and chonky Dell laptop. I didn’t remember quite how old it actually was – Stace was able to look up the service number, and it was … Continue reading

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on and on it will always be rhythm, rhyme, and harmony

So Christine McVie died today. I haveā€¦ a lot of feelings. My thing with Fleetwood Mac started in 9th grade, when my dad handed me a cassette of their 1975 self-titled album, and told me to give it a try, … Continue reading

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the cause is gone, the effect all that remains

I just spent way too much time reading through ancient journal entries on a bunch of my old blogs I thought for sure had been eaten by the internet. Turns out Blogger still exists, and is owned by Google, and … Continue reading

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the red truth

It’s been a minute. I got two teeth extracted the other day, and a bone graft. My face is wicked swollen and my mouth is full of stitches, and it’s itchy and achy and uncomfortable. Doing anything that raises my … Continue reading

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