Author Archives: jaq

Sometimes I feel like I lose the ability to be an active participant in my own life. When depression starts to creep up again, I want to want to do things – write or record music, knit, paint – any … Continue reading →

When did I become so complacent, so accommodating, such a helpless thing? Have I always been like this? Was I always so terrified of conflict that I was willing to do anything to keep the peace, even if it meant … Continue reading →

I originally started writing this in an Instagram story but it got way too long, and also maybe too personal. It was in response to a post from mattxiv about a firefighter that came out as gay in his obituary. … Continue reading →

Once again, up at 4:35 in the morning. At least this time it’s a Saturday. I signed up to do Record Production Month again this year, wherein you pick a quantity of music you want to record (a single, EP, … Continue reading →

Yesterday, at like 10pm, I got an urge to take out my very old and chonky Dell laptop. I didn’t remember quite how old it actually was – Stace was able to look up the service number, and it was … Continue reading →

So Christine McVie died today. I have… a lot of feelings. My thing with Fleetwood Mac started in 9th grade, when my dad handed me a cassette of their 1975 self-titled album, and told me to give it a try, … Continue reading →

I just spent way too much time reading through ancient journal entries on a bunch of my old blogs I thought for sure had been eaten by the internet. Turns out Blogger still exists, and is owned by Google, and … Continue reading →

It’s been a minute. I got two teeth extracted the other day, and a bone graft. My face is wicked swollen and my mouth is full of stitches, and it’s itchy and achy and uncomfortable. Doing anything that raises my … Continue reading →

It’s 1:44 am. I’m an idiot – I shouldn’t be awake right now. I needed to go to bed hours ago. But I fell down an ambient/IDM rabbit hole like it was 2010, and truthfully, it was pretty lovely. Everything … Continue reading →

March 2020 was a hell of a month. I started it out thinking I was doing Ladies Rock Camp Boston in April, seeing Polaris in June, and going to Firefly in July. By the end of March, all those plans … Continue reading →